*Sigh*...

I really don't know what you want me to do... I really don't want to stay angry at you, but there's nothing much I can do if you won't let me do anything. I was so hoping to settle everything tonight, but after what you said, I felt it was better I cool down first. Now, I don't even want to talk to you at all anymore. But seriously, every minute I spend angry at you hurts me. Last night, I thought of burying the hatchet and called you to show that I do care, and what do I get? Your nonchalant attitude. I guess Edward Scissorfuckinghands is more important than anything else at that moment. I'm so tired... tired of being angry at you, tired of not knowing how your day was, tired of not hearing from you in the afternoons, tired of hurting myself, tired of being tired. I'm missing you so much at the same time... if you won't be there for me, who else will? Who else will...? I never learn do I... never learn to let go to avoid all these.